Oh, this is wonderful! And Sirius is very Holden Caulfield, is he not? That very much works, my dear. I can see how he would feel disconnected both from his family and from the structure of life itself, with Remus serving as a grounding influence. You show this well in the fact that Sirius was adamant that he consciously chose to come to Remus first and that that is where he wanted to be.
Also, like Holden, on some level he seems to recognize the ephemeral quality of his dreams. He imagines a life in California, he plans for it, yet, deep down, that is not what he is seeking at all and he knows it. You crafted that very well. BTW, I had this vision of Sirius doing the magical version of American Chopper. LOL.
There was also a lovely Holden connection in Sirius' desire to comfort Remus (to be that catcher in the rye.) He is not fundamentally selfish, and that flashback scene was beautiful and very, very telling. Obviously the alienation he feels within his family is very mitigated (or even negated) by the presence of Remus, one who he could help as well as love. Sirius needs that.
And the ending? “What if they didn’t?” Sirius says, bringing a hand to rest softly, lightly, against the hollow of Remus’s lower back, an invitation gracing the curve of his spine. “What if we woke up every morning with a blank slate, and everything that happened in the night was just like a dream?”
Remus grabs the front of Sirius’s shirt with both hands and yanks him forward. “Then I would take everything I want,” he says, and presses his open mouth to Sirius’s parted lips.
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Also, like Holden, on some level he seems to recognize the ephemeral quality of his dreams. He imagines a life in California, he plans for it, yet, deep down, that is not what he is seeking at all and he knows it. You crafted that very well. BTW, I had this vision of Sirius doing the magical version of American Chopper. LOL.
There was also a lovely Holden connection in Sirius' desire to comfort Remus (to be that catcher in the rye.) He is not fundamentally selfish, and that flashback scene was beautiful and very, very telling. Obviously the alienation he feels within his family is very mitigated (or even negated) by the presence of Remus, one who he could help as well as love. Sirius needs that.
And the ending?
“What if they didn’t?” Sirius says, bringing a hand to rest softly, lightly, against the hollow of Remus’s lower back, an invitation gracing the curve of his spine. “What if we woke up every morning with a blank slate, and everything that happened in the night was just like a dream?”
Remus grabs the front of Sirius’s shirt with both hands and yanks him forward. “Then I would take everything I want,” he says, and presses his open mouth to Sirius’s parted lips.
Beautiful!
Sorry for the long, rambling comment.